One Day at Soekarno Hatta International Airport

Today...Tante Dewi and family are going to Makkah. Tante Dewi is my aunty and she is like my own mother, she loves me and treat me like her own daughter...that's why I always feel like home even in the distance, and I love her just like I love Ibuk. She has been waiting for this moment since years ago, I am happy for her because finally she can make her dream come true, going hajj together with Om Gatot, Mbah Har and Tante Reno. Alhamdulilah...

Airport give me flashback memories...

I had lived at Myanmar when I was kid because my father had worked on Embassy at Myanmar and he took me and Ibuk to Myanmar. It was a childhood memory and for me it was not really something memorable. I don't mean to brag about my family but live in families where all family members had to go abroad burns my desire to spread my wings and going anywhere around the world.

(Seriously, when you are reading this paragraph... I really don't mean to brag anything about my family...)

My grandfather had lived and got his master at USA. Ibuk had worked in Myanmar and had visited some countries in Asia, my dad had worked at Embassy at Myanmar and Sana'a and had traveled to some countries in the middle east plus Italy. My Uncle Aji is a successful man who worked at one BUMN in Indonesia, he finished his bachelor at Adelaide, Australia and had traveled around the world. I am so jealous to know that he has ever visited Paris, the city of love, a place where culinary art was born (but thanks for the beautiful bag). Uncle Teguh, which is a successful researcher, had finished his master degree at University of Reading, UK and get his doctoral at Australian National University...he had visited many countries around the world, sometimes different city every month... 

You know, when you are rich or have a bunch of money then you are able to travel around the world for vacation...

yeeeaah....it's common... it's not something surprising...

but

If you can go around the world for a good purpose, and the good news is you don't have to pay anything for it...plus you get paid...

for me it's really once in a lifetime opportunity...

My good friend at High School, Ali Fahmi and Lely, both of them got a scholarship and now they are studying and doing research for their master. Fahmi lives in Korea and Lely is studying at King Abdullah University of Science and Technology, Saudi Arabia...both of them give me a fire to pursue my dream...I do want to be someone like them...I do want to have once in a lifetime opportunity to study overseas...

Today at the airport...I told God while I was waiting for the departure time...

I told God please give me one more chance, I used to give my best shot two years ago when I applied for exchange program to USA. I had an interview but didn't get call back after that. I was not losing hope at that time even honestly, I was dissapointed. I know God always has a plan...and a year ago God made my 'other' dream come true, I met someone I love and had a chance to get to know him well...right now, I realized  it was a best plan and I am so okay to replace the opportunity to USA with a year with the one I love...

At the gate where I saw Qantas symbol above my head, I told God, God...let me be standing and entering this gate next year... I don't care about the place, I don't care about the country...I don't want to go overseas just for posting my photos at my facebook  so everyone can see what I have achieve...what I ask for is

I want to learn cooking and food...just as simple as that

If You feel that I am insisting, please don't...I know someone like me, who have dream to enter the world's best culinary school, it seems an impossible dream...because it is impossible then I asked you to make it possible...I know everything is possible for You, not for me...I gave my best shot God, even I know maybe someone in somewhere  had worked harder than I did but please let me be someone who deserves  for this opportunity...

but

If You have another plan for me...please show me the way...then I would not be devastated or crush and burn...

I would keep my head up high

God keep my promise...Words that I had deal it with you...
God it's a secret...just between my heart and yours...


We will see...